Scratch in the car

When I took the car in the 2014 I have never been used to driving cars before. I used to take care of it so much. Everyday I myself will wash the car ensure it’s super clean all the time. Within 14 days of taking the car, I went in a small lane. It was very short path to travel, at that time I always take big roads to avoid these traffic. When it was very narrow and no way to go I just stopped it. Someone on the front said come come you can come. In the left it was a metal dustbin and in the right it was an auto. As I wasn’t comfortable as I used to be now driving in congested areas. I just followed his instructions as I went a little forward I heard a little noise in the left side. My car hit a small metal which was projecting from the dustbin. I should have stopped or steered to the right. I didn’t know what to do at that moment I just continued driving. I heard a big scratching noise. When I went and stopped the car near home it’s a huge scratch throughout the entire back door. A big line scratch. My heart literally stopped at the moment. Next day took the car to service and gave it for service to get it done immediately. Think it costed more than 35k covered in insurance and the car was like new again without any scratch. I kept maintaining the same way for some years. Even if there was any small scratch I immediately will leave it for body work to be painted back to bring to original condition. That’s how I used to maintain for many years. After that once my car got affected in the flood, after that I stopped giving that care how I used to. Though I had someone to wash it daily. Previously how I will take it for immediate body work to be shining bright with needed paintings to be done, now I stopped doing that. My friends who have recently traveling or travelled with me will know how I’m maintaining it like a bumper car now even if hit I’ll just see and drive through though maintaining it with good interiors. Only the friends who have seen or travelled with me when I took the car will only know how it was maintained well. If I think it through what made the sudden change in behaviour of the care I had for was lost. Sometimes I’m not able to understand is it the years or is it old. Or some damage has happened why I really need to take effort or spend so much to maintain again or my needs and priorities have changed or matured enough to not spend for luxury than need. I still not able to conclude. Like this also most of the time it happens for us with any relationship over the years. The same love and care we have for people changes over the years. Sometimes it’s difficult to understand as to why situation, circumstances, finances, difference of opinion, lack of respect, new circle of people. Not sure why for both. But it’s a realisation for me to care for both though years have gone or whatever may happen wish I could always remain the same.