Flower Shop surprise

After my Dad has gone to be with the Lord, almost for every festival or start of the day or any accessions I used to go to the cemetery with my Mom. It used to be regular habit used to get flowers from velachery where I used to buy regularly and take to the cemetery. Today being christmas thought will go to cemetery in the afternoon after the lunch. As we have shifted house to different place and so thought will buy in Saidapet on the route to Nandanam YMCA cemetery. After I have placed all the orders and I asked how much and whatever she said I gave the money. I never used to negotiate with the street vendors. She asked me for what purpose and where you are going. I said to her I was going to Nandanam YMCA cemetery as its Christmas and buying this to my father's tomb. Don't know what happened she called me and gave me a bunch of big floweres in my hand and said take it. I just thanked her walked 2 steps and again went back to her and asked Akka how much I need to pay for this please tell me. She said sir take it happily and you don't have to pay anything. I said thank you, but deep down by eyes were about to get wet with tears don't know why. This last entire month I would have spent a lot and got lot of new things. But I don't know for some reason that little flowers that Akka gave me to take it my fathers tomb on Christmas of surprise gave lot of happiness compared to every other expensive purchase I did in the last couple of months. It should have costed that Akka, but her gesture moved my heart. This is a sweet lesson for me, even little gesutres what others does to us of compassion or love that moves our heart. It’s a reminder for me to be also like that Akka more often to bring smiles to others.

Morning Beach Walk

When I used to work in the IT it used to be a regular habit for couple of years, I used to go to beach early in the morning for walk. It used to be very refreshing. It had been a regular practice for me until I started the café. After started the café cos of the late night closure of café and reaching home very late night couldn't able to get up early in the morning and eventually have stopped the early morning walk in the beach. Recently I was looking for shifting the house and that time initially I had the idea and was looking for houses near the beaches and for some reason I forgot that and totally looking for house near the place where I'm planning to setup my new office space for business. But something or the other was happening and it kind of getting dropped due to space restriction or pet restriction or we didn’t like the house at all. At that time one mediator said there is one house of what you are expecting but that’s little far from the place you are looking for. I just went and seen the place, I liked it and we finalized it. He though mentioned its near the beach only but I didn't consider at the point. Once I was about to finalize and shift that’s when I realized its hardly a 10 min walk to the beach. Though I haven't started going all the day to the beach. But eventually started going on some days. Unlike before I used to go for almost 5km walk in beach, but this time I just walk from home to beach and stand there and enjoy the nature and the God's one of the best creation. Just standing there and thanking God listening to the sweet whispers of the waves and seeing the mighty vast creation. It can't be more peaceful and refreshing to start the day. Sometimes we think lot of things don't go the way how we wanted but when it all happens at the end only we know that God didn't allow few things for reason and he allows them little late to ensure we are prepared and he fulfills the even tiny little desires of us.

Good Old days

Recently I was reading about Moses encounter with God in the Mount Sinai, Where he would be there in the Mountain and cloud would descent in the place. God's glory was filled in the mountain. Moses talked to God as if talking to a friend. He was there on the Mountain and would request God to show his Glory. God would say to him, He would die if his Glory is shown. He will tell him, I'll hide you with by hand till I pass by then you could see only my back. Moses stayed on the mountain 40days and night without food and water. And he had great encounter with God. When he came down everyone seen Moses face radiance with Glory which he wasn't aware. Moses will go to God for Israelites and his prayer and request would be to ensure God's presence be with him where God asks him to go. He would even say don't send us if your presence does not comes with us. It reminded me one of an incident in my childhood, hardly I would have been studying 2nd standard or 3rd standard. Since from childhood Mom used to say all biblical stories and also used to attend Sunday class. I was so curious and used to ask Mom I need to see Jesus. I want to see him. As a child had no limitation to think imagine and want. When Mom said you pray God will reveal Himself to you. I took it so seriously and used to pray very frequently and whenever possible without a single doubt to see Jesus. One night I just woke up from my sleep I was a bright light as a back of a person surrounded with blue luminous light. I realised it was Jesus at the moment and fear gripped so much and turned and slept I didn't even tell anyone. I stopped praying that prayer to see Jesus. When I was reading the Moses encounter recently I was reminded of this childhood experience. It as reminder for me to check how as a child my faith and how earnestly I used to long to seem him and for his presence without expecting anything in return. What happened to those faith and encounter? Even after getting saved the first love which I used to have for God just longing to be in just His presence expecting nothing. It faded away over the years. It was a reminder for me to get back to God as how I used to be in child without expecting anything just wanted to see Him and be with Him.