Good Old days

Recently I was reading about Moses encounter with God in the Mount Sinai, Where he would be there in the Mountain and cloud would descent in the place. God's glory was filled in the mountain. Moses talked to God as if talking to a friend. He was there on the Mountain and would request God to show his Glory. God would say to him, He would die if his Glory is shown. He will tell him, I'll hide you with by hand till I pass by then you could see only my back. Moses stayed on the mountain 40days and night without food and water. And he had great encounter with God. When he came down everyone seen Moses face radiance with Glory which he wasn't aware. Moses will go to God for Israelites and his prayer and request would be to ensure God's presence be with him where God asks him to go. He would even say don't send us if your presence does not comes with us. It reminded me one of an incident in my childhood, hardly I would have been studying 2nd standard or 3rd standard. Since from childhood Mom used to say all biblical stories and also used to attend Sunday class. I was so curious and used to ask Mom I need to see Jesus. I want to see him. As a child had no limitation to think imagine and want. When Mom said you pray God will reveal Himself to you. I took it so seriously and used to pray very frequently and whenever possible without a single doubt to see Jesus. One night I just woke up from my sleep I was a bright light as a back of a person surrounded with blue luminous light. I realised it was Jesus at the moment and fear gripped so much and turned and slept I didn't even tell anyone. I stopped praying that prayer to see Jesus. When I was reading the Moses encounter recently I was reminded of this childhood experience. It as reminder for me to check how as a child my faith and how earnestly I used to long to seem him and for his presence without expecting anything in return. What happened to those faith and encounter? Even after getting saved the first love which I used to have for God just longing to be in just His presence expecting nothing. It faded away over the years. It was a reminder for me to get back to God as how I used to be in child without expecting anything just wanted to see Him and be with Him.